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loving myself back

i’ve always wonder why

why i feel so uneasy

even thought i believe you are here

i can’t help myself

but comeback to odd deeds

i know it isn’t good for me

although it feels good

but i can’t say no

why do i regret everytime  i fail to obey you

i pray every single day

i make a decision then i break it.

i cry, i feel bad

then lately i realised it takes time

one goes through suffering, rejection

and finally it happened

right in the middle of a relationship

right when i thought i found mr Right

but the more i stayed the more i felt bad

It’s over now, i went trough pain

but i’m happy today

i can live my life obeying you

more confident, facing life with a smile

i finally learn to appreciate myself

and to value it at the most

my body is the temple of the holy spirit

and i love myself back

 

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Insight of a night

It’s so cold outside
I put myself together
Walking so quick to reach home
I can stand it anymore
I’m so tired.
I reach home It’s so hot
Take a bath
Just stay there In the water
relaxing, dreaming
Oh well I guess I slept
I was wondering why uncomfortable
It doesn’t feel like bed
I’m Still laying here in the bath
It’s late, I wake up with blurred eyes
get myself dried
It was so good
Laughing with father
Discussing about everything
He who once was so hill
Is healthy, smiling
Then he say goodbye
I want to know more but it is late
Go to bed, how sweet it is
Stand up, kneel down and pray
Go back in bed next stop sweet dreams
Close my eyes but can’t sleep
Wake up put some movie
Back to bed, listening understanding
Then sound with no image
Sinking in the depth of sleep
Hearing nothing anymore
Laying there peacefully
in the warm of a medium sized bed

Oh everyone is there
Papi sitting in the middle
We are around listening to stories
Eating our meal up
“there’s wine” say someone!
Yeah you can have it all say papi
Come hug me say papi
He’s so warm, his arm are so protectiv
Wish I could stay some more

rriiiinnnnggggg.

It’s time to wake up.
The night is over
How much I wish you could still be there
Long time you decided to have an eternal sleep
You went without saying goodbye.
You never woke up again.
Hope you were still here